The chapters keep growing.....

I began mom life in 2004 after getting married in 2003. We closed on our first home and had a preemie in the same month. After 20 years of raising humans I have finally began discovering my individual self.

After coming home with my preemie it didn't take long to realize I did not have a partner rather a 30 something old child. I made my world about my kids. Two years later, my ginger was born. It was difficult being home with the 2 babies all day and night. New York was a 1000 miles away from everything and everyone I knew. I concentrated on my kids being healthy and happy. Thankfully we moved back to my home state of Indiana, a few months before my daughter was born.

Work life balance, what does that mean to a mother? Is there such a thing? My kids, 21, 19 and 16 keep everyday vibrant. Constant changing of plans, moods, and life choices. It feels like I am just now getting a grip on raising my children. Oh how I would've done things different with the clarity I have now. I have tried to instill in my children to be conscious of their health. I always wanted an open relationship and hoped they felt comfortable to talk to me about anything. I decided it was important to teach my kids about nutrition and taking care of themselves, inside and out.

Motherhood is a perpetual worrisome part of life. The father wasn't any help, had his own agenda, believed bringing home a paycheck and not beating me made him the perfect husband I would never be able to replace. Well it took 20 years for me to grow a pair and get on with my life and live my best life for my kids. My oldest went with his father, which crushed me. My other 2 children stayed with me and they grew very close after the divorce.

The summer of 2024, my oldest is graduating college, middle child graduating high school, and my youngest beginning drivers ed. It's a whole new realm of motherhood!